18/11/08..

when to eat steamboat. with.. hil,alex,cal,jh,claps,and joel..
eat dam full....then still have left over.. food .. hil.. go cook.. all finish..
then ask me eat all.. wth.. then after that we share.. the food..then challenge..
see who win.. .. in the end hill win coz she take lesser.. then me.. .hais.. sian..


19/11/08
when to Asia conference..at expo....and i enjoy..the performance there..
especially the drama.. if freaking real.. but accept for.. the Juliet..kill herself is fate..
but the acting was nice.. and i like the LI XIAO LONG part.. is cool.. hahs..
and a part i not so like is the talk .. is bored sit till my butt cramp.. so tats why you can see me keep moving my butt..lols..


dnnoe why i blog lesser and lesser....

20/1/08
i wanted to kal you tat coz i still can feel it.. maybe you cant feel it coz you still cant forget him..
i can see tat your wound are deep in your heart but i wanted to use my heart to heal the wound with you..
... maybe i know.. every time you take bus or whatever you will pass by his house and re mine you off your memories.. again.. but i want to tell you when ever you need me i will be there for you... i want your sad or happy /promised memories. with him to be... faded... and start a fresh memories with me and cover up all the memories..you had with him..and let me bring the happiness to you ..

Don think of him is the best way..

Labels: YOU CAN FORGET.. SEE IF YOU WANT?

sian..ler...brother out there.. can we have something fun.. better than always.. doing the same thing.. i feeling quite bored like my life.. no joy.. i am just like a "FEI WU"....always... lie down at home... go out with brothers .. go out slack..Slack . smk.. smk....bored sia.. i dont want to carry on this type of life... i dont want to be a unless freak.. i want to work... sian i really.. want.. work.. if not i going Malaysia.. today... and..and do nothing there and more like a "FEI WU"....= useless freak..
i want to make use of my holiday do something useful.. like working... maybe sometime can help elderly.. cross the road.. i want to help a lot .. alot people in my life... if i have money.. liao i will donate..some part of the money to the.. elderly.. or all saint home.. or maybe those who needed the money more than i am... i really feel.. that.. way.. hais... can i find a job.. and work... but sian.. ler... i dont want to work at fast food restaurant.... the pay is too less for me.. and i want to buy alot alot..of things..sian..can i get a better pay job.. like 4.5bucks to 6bucks.. a hour.. let me save some part of the money.. some parts to buy my things and somepart on transport.. and food.. and some part.. donate to the needy.. people.. hais... but hais.. i just cant find a job.. izzit it boring.. everyday do the samething.. like wake up brushtheeth.. eat breakfast.. than on computer do some chores..thn go out slack... than come back around 6+..7+..or maybe8++..
than rest .. bath.. eat dinner... than backed at my bed room draw draw... than watch tV .. than sleep ... izzit ... bored... hais.. i want do something better than this.. like.. find a quite good job.. like.. pay.. 1000~ to 1300 per month.. than work for full time for 1 month.. than get salery..than
save some in bank than buy my things.. than donate.. some..help more people in life..when he/she really in need.. and you will feel better in life.. ya... izzit great... wow.. sian.. but Why is so hard...ai ya... wait till find a job than better.. ..bored.. stay at home is just damm bored...


how can i do better in my house..to stop my parents from nag nag and NAG>>>!!!...i cant stand it i feel like taking all my belonging and dump it inside a bag and leave this house... and rent a places to stay.. and will never here their nag nag.. anymore... hais... izzit like what jordy say.. really true.. .. means good person is hard to be... izzit really .. true.. but sometimes u may feel its quite true.. ..... i just cant let my parents see my real self anymore since they dont cherish me anymore.. they cherish more on my sister and my younger sister... i dont feel their love anymore since .. my sister was born since my younger sister come to Singapore..
in 4 year old.. its means..is around 2003 to 2004.. i cant feel the love anymore.. i just feel i being left out ... and they started to hate me ... from that time..and now i really believe what my primary school teachers.. says now... she say now a days... the middle one always being hate .. or being punish..more than the biggest..or the smallest... mostly the boys...i dont like that man.. why i do i have to face this type of consequences..like what .. my teachers say.. hais.. hais..
i still have many thing to say.. but i dont feel like review it out..cause its personal.. stuff.. hais...


sian ai ya .. maybe am i to troublesome... think to much....
just be happy .. can ler the most impontant think in my life is to be happy... than eveything.. its.. over.. ;D

Labels: DON WORRY BE HAPPY... ;D

o.O .. today.. i went to city Hall.. zz
i went to city hall with my fren GTL..
hahs... we went there to see my pottry teacher
exhibition..wow.. wad a wonderful pieace of art...
i love art.. art make feel free ..
i long time nv see my teacher mr joel tan liao..
his and everybody art there was so amazed by my eyes.
espicially my teacher work.. his work was so special..
cause his art.. was the smallest among all..ya..cooll
and i still have alot to learn ... feel like going back to QPS
to do my pottery ... pottery needs alot of patient,,
in it..if i went back to pottery it will bring backed my patient
i loved being a patient person.. lols..
lets ask my teacher when can we go back QPS to do our..
pottery.. hahs.. ya..i love doing pottery... i dnnoe why..!
when ever i am happy, sad, angry.. i will use art to express my feeling... OUT
ya... lots.. just 3 word...

Labels: I LOVE ART

don feel like blogging any more... i just so stupid..right... ya.. at first i really don feel like going to church.. i just want to know wads its.. like.. only.... ya i know that i am immature .. i know.. cos i don want to face.. it what so ever .. nvm..i don know what to do...
hais.. i Donnoe a word will hurt .. ya i know that i am stupid..i immature.. first thing you .. i nv say that i am perfect... siao.. perfect.. not everyone are perfect in this world.. there are still alot to improve.. you know why i want to make myself immature.. hais.. its so hard .. to tell.. can don listen...nvm.. i know that i am wrong .. what can i do rather than saying a sorry word.. nothing .. i can do nothing.. nvm.. since.... sry every time doesn't help..actually i don like to say.. sry.. .. nvm.. i don care.. what you think.. what so ever .. if i cant take criticize.. i wont say it out here.. mabe.. i dont..
i know my english are poor.. dnnoe.. lar... i just think that my english getting poor.. and poor.. i donnoe how to explain.. zzz....to you maybe i not mature.. ya.. you are more mature... ai ya whatever.. lar.. if i continue to fight with you there no ending... i take one step back and thats it.. i don say anymore.. hais.. what to do.. now... i know a sry.. word cant.. do much to you.. i insulting the whole cell group i.. know..ok what i can do is only sry to the whole cell group... and thats.. all.
i can do.. maybe you can hate.. me .. nvm...

ya sorry to every cell group members...


ya since you say.. that i have attitude problem...ya.. so let it be.. i take it...nvm.. i dont care this anymore...since you that i cant take criticize.. i will show it to you.. how can i take criticize....
my family ..thing make me feel so down liao ++ my sickness.. coughing everywhere...
i have been coughing since june... i dont care.. i know that i need to do something more better than this.. i need to study hard i want to prove it to my whole family... my dad always criticize me.. and i already use to it.... i dont care what ever he say. you know.. what.. every time he ask me to work hard i tent to slack much.. is good company make me think that i am able to study..
i can do it by myself.. anw thank.. to all thoes make me dont feel like smking..and work hard towards your goal... tys.. to all those ya....nvm.. ..friend like me i think is hopeless to all those good company i made.. i just so useless. so immature what beak spell.. stupid lame.. things.. you.. know you. are making yourself lame.. so that it make a crap... and it makes me don think... i feeling down.. who knows that i everyday get scolded by my parents.. they hate me the most..
at first ... i still dnnoe that i had a twin brother at first .. till that time my mum told.. me..about it..i felt that i am so fortunate to be in this world hais.. if my twin brother was here he will sure be mature than me.. and help me solve.. all this unsolved problem.. in my life... from now on i will be backed myself and no lame stuff .. liao.. dnnoe what break spell.. and what test.. i think that i should stop that liao.. liao.. is a lame joke if you know everything.. hais.. so you rather not know it..

actually you are more attitude problem than me.. if you don belive can ask.. kenneth jordy ..they all cos they always.. mansion.. ya i should not say it anymore.. i scared that you cant take it.. ya is a secret between we boys.. and lots.. but just thing that you don have attitude problem can liao.. OK.. Zzz i shouldn't say it.. hais.. i guess everyone had their own attitude problem.. bahs.. i seldom hear..this guy had attitude problem.. this gurl had attitude problem.. it end up seems to be attitude problem everywhere is only people haven tell.. you.. or you don realized it..or you know but is.. crazy...ya its difficult to explain...pehaps is you dnnoe or i dnnoe... or i anyhow say..
that is a question..

Labels: attitude problem eveywhere?

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5/11/08 to 6/11/08 at chalet

when to zhi hong chalet.. was quite OK not so bored... we went to play basketball..

coming back was so~... tired.. and hungry..so we eat some fried noodles...and some hot dog.. and some BBQ chickens...and some lime juice...Zzz and we proceed to zhi hong room...and drink green tea.. and some beer and vodka...wtf .. the vodka 40%
alcohol then i drink 1 and a half cup.. and i cant take it liao.. and i "ZUI"..liao...

Zzz... i cant stand properly...wth... and out to meet Chris...at Changi Village .. on the way there saw jian fong and justin on the way to zhi hong chalet also..so we 5 when when to meet chris .. zzz on fuk lor cant stand properly always...meet chris liao then take cab go

bak zhi hong chalet... zzz.. then after that zhi hong mother bring out some food for they all that those who haven eat der...and bring ask a red wine... woos.. and i drink again.. i drink about 2 cups...freaking.. dizzy at the time...and we when back room to have a rest Zzz,, all of then cant sleep and then we went for a walk at around 3pm in the night...went to Changi village... and and really didnt expect.. to see ah gua..fuk i dnnoe than they have boobs...

fuk .. and when to buy a drink at cheers.. and saw a ah gua. .. inside.. too.. fuk dam ugly..and

he give us a flying kiss sia.. eeeeeeeeeeeew..... fuk dam sway.. then we quickly run.. and we left Chris inside the cheers and he said that the ah gua.. shake his butt at Chris.. wth more sway ah Chris..... then the ah gua.. chase us.. sia.. we quickly run to the stair case near by and hide above... and saw that the ah gua.. waiting right.. below.. us.. siting at the chair near.. by... fuk.. sia.. how.. then we quickly run off down the stair case safely ... "HENG"... that the ah gua didnt chase us liao... if not later he fuk us at the corner... sway ..kau..then we went bak cheers to buy a milk glass bottle and drink.. Zzz everyone buy the same drink... in case the ah gua chase us we can use the glass bottle to smack the head..lols... fun sia.. being chase by ah gua......then after that we went bak.. chalet....and smoke... Zzz in a day.. can smoke about 6 stick liao...fuk all free.. mine as well amoke..then we sleep.. about 2hr then wake up at around 7.00am.. and went to bath...and after that walk to changi village to take bus on the way there i was very dizzy and feeling like vomiting fuk..

pehaps.. is ytd i drink the vodka.. thing makes me feel lik tat bah.... waiting for bus and i just sit down for a while.. i went to grass and vomited.. fuk is all water ... and i think is vodka.. bah..!! than brought bus..





NA BEI.. my dad put a extra lock at the gate.. zzz i know that this day will come..fuk then i call my dad and ask him.. why he lock the gate.. and shall not review personal stuff.. fuk him the i must go to kenneth house.. to have rest..zz.. fuk sai damm tired and we both sleep

kenneth sleep at his bath and i sleep at the table.. poor thing... but.. nvm.. lor..at least have.. a place.. to sleep..sleep till 1.30pm i went bak home.. and i glad that my dad was home liao..

and he scolded me.!!! .fuk.. and nag nag...then after that ok liao.. fuk lor... so moody after scolded by my dad.. i think trought ... nvm.. i was so sick .. and tired... .. and i help my mother do some chores then after that went to sleep .. sleep till 8.00pm my dad kal me wake up and us me go and eat.. and ya.. for 6/11/08... i nv even eat a single thing since morning then i only drink a ice milo... only and.. 5++pm eat bread only ler..dam hungry and went to eat ..feeling so sick.... .. then after eating went to sleep liao.. sleep till 9.30pm pig.. kal me..she kal my handfone then i pick up then she put down.. and my minfd was thinking she sure will kal my hse der.. and she really kal..fuk .. don feel lik listening.. and she ask me weather tml wan to go for self group meeting.. .. i say see first.. zz.cause i am sick..and she really know that i will complain.. lols.. sure i will..!!! fuking self group what that why must i go..lame.. i also not even church people why am i going this kind of thing.. blur king..

ai ya i dnnoe lar...(^oo^)

tat day was so moody .. hais.. tys kenneth.. for lending.... me sleep ..hahs... i am so troblemsome
sry.. to someone that i show attitude coz my mood was not there zzz.. hais.. and i not feeling well
at tat time if got any mistaken .. tell me.. i blooding hell at tat time .. maybe i am still in jordy world.. zzz



7/11/08

today wake up very moody.. bored.. still thinging weather wan go self group meeting.. i don feel like going ... but i must decide now..
weather go or not going... erm.. ok lor i go.. sian. go there for what sia.. since i nohting to do.. then like that lor... if i got things to do i sure will not go zzz..Cell group.. i also dnnoe was that..hais...neh mine..lor..kk..shall kal her later after she do finsh ezlink..bored..

2.19pm

ya ya sry.. ！！ k.. i don go .. finally i break the spell ... -_-"...

you.and have fail the test .. -_-' lame test i did .. to you..

long time didnt blog a shall blog today... since... i didnt.. blog for about 4 days .. liao...feel like bloging today....so ya....

saturday...1/11/08
i was planning to go to church with calvin since he ask me to go with him.. but EnD up..
i didnt go ... coz i went to work... a day.. since jordy ask me to since he say that they need one more..people... there... so i wen tout my house at around 2...+ ...3 pm.....and take bus at jordy
house and saw kenneth ... already at his house .. so i went to slack.. and cheat chat .. at jordy since jordy was bathing ... ya... then we slack to 4.30 then we went to work..with jordy family...zzz..
only work for 2 hours...bored...giving out that stupid thing... okay nvm.. got money can liao.. since only 2 hour the money also quite less .lar..hahs...then after 845am... we went home and reach about..10+.. going 11...ya..went i go home i was i feeling quite hungry .. coz i didnt eat for my dinner
then i drink a donnoe what chicken.. wine soup... then make me cant sleep for the whole... night and someone in the middle of the night keep kaling me she kal about 3 times... zzz she ask me weather want to go to service... a not... then since i didnt go for sat night maybe i should go for this .... then i promised her to kal me tml 8.30 at the morning to wake me up... zzz

Sunday morning 2/11/08 ..8.05 morning.. fuk you kal me again..zzz so tired

also no need to wake me up lor... i cant sleep the whole night till 8.05 then i sleep i the morning then soon pig kal my handfone again i refuse to pick up cos i really to tired then really i dont feel lik going .. really... but in her nag .nag nag... finally i go.. zzz .. in a tired mood.. hais...so i went for.. the service...it was my first time in service.. i felt that they are all crazy went i went there went they started to sing the song.. all that what so ever .. why must they put their hands up...zz..
so i ask her.. and she say this is a kind of respect....o.O... ..ok...after service... pig and lexs..went to eat.. and i went home for awhile... then meet my friend for awhile then meet bak pig .. and lexs and a person to eat.. zzz that time i as feeling sick.. zzzi dont feel lik eating ..zz.. but in the end i buy 1 plate of chicken rice. and eat..zzz. pigs .you are so noise... zzz..after that went to back home to get change while the pig wait me at the bus stop for me so long...sorry...hais.. after tat went to pig house and wait her bath... zzz.bored than went to lexs.. house...and waited for so long..
then something happen zzz.. shall not review.. hais.. then went to.. karen b day party...`after that went to take MRT at 9.45
pigs need to go home fast .. why i feel like pig is so emo.. from the bak view...i see her.. and with her.. tired red eyes..i feel that she has alot of alot thing to say.. she is thinking something..
or what so ever... zzz. but she didn't tel me..... ok nvm..why am i always.. think about the person hais..i just cant control.. myself.. nvm.. i must tell my self this is all lies.. i dont believe... this kind of thing she love him not me i should i think of this kind of thing...wake up cy ... u are not the past cy you are now.. now... zzz every time i see you i feel lik protecting you..go and die lar that is just your imagination..stop thinking dumb.. cy.. just a friend why are you thinking so much...neh. but it is just so real when what i am doing..!.
..she dont love you.. cy she love him rmb tat.. and you would think this any more.. freaking dumb..cy..
you much dumb than that da sha gua pig...


zzz ass...i feel lik kicking you off my brain..but i stuck...there on my brain however i kick it no matter i try to forget it.. maybe this just like what you think of him....nvm...ass.....eh why am i thinking again.. fuk you.. lar cy.. hais...shut your face down off my brain.. idiot...


3/11/08

bored day in my did not go work today cos she every monday will be at home...
so.. went to do some chores ...which was being force... zzz i hate this man...
hais.. after tat on com awhile... than about 3pm... went to kenneth house play...
basketbal... zzz it was raining cats and dogs... zz so cant paly basketbal liao so went to
west plaza to have my lunch coz my mum didnt cook.. hais.. bored...
then rain stop at about 4++.. zzz so went to play basketbal at the dino park...
eventually it was wet lik hell .. zz.. k nvm.. we continues.. to play.. just hack .. care..
the bad thing is that i fell down and injured my right.. and lots of black.. 5 cent.. and 20cent on my pump and my elbow have a black 50cent zz is than big lor now still pain lor..my butt is in pain too... hais sway.. day..after playing went to kenneth to put the ball.. and slack.. awhile.. zz then went home..
went home so pain.. on the way back home saw my bro teck heng he take the bus same as me...
o.O.. take awhile reach home.. . went home tell my mum i felt down zz so poor thing..zz..freaking pain right now..hais..

zz.. 4/11/08

i write all this above thing write till i crazy.. zz....x_x
today i was plannig to go bak school to do d n t but i over slept... zzz i really feel lik going bak to school and do d n t derx.. sry MR duck face...hais...*>*